O day

Thinking today is O day! Really hoping anyway. Got my first +opk yesterday and started cramping and bloating. Amazed I'm ovulating still without clomid! K went to work yesterday so it would be awesome to O today. But again, not expecting anything at all. We've reached a point where we are just indifferent. My arthritis in my feet is making walking so difficult and I know if I don't go see my rheumatologist soon, it's just gonna keep getting worse. Which means I'll be back on all my meds and have to stop ttc. I don't want that at all but
I don't know what else to do. Ahh well....that's life, we make all these plans but only God knows what will happen and it will be in His time, not ours.